
Food continues to tempt me; love doesn't.
My life as of late has been about three main things: work, worldly objects, and food. Not that it’s completely a bad thing to focus on the said items, no, but when you start disregarding proper financial management, health, and most importantly, love, there’s something wrong with you (and that’s an understatement; read: there’s something very wrong with you). So I guess something’s really wrong with how I’ve been living my life.
I consider my work a 24/7 affair; almost everything I do has something to do with work. Be it blogging, be it travel, my head just keeps relating everything with work. It’s definitely not just for the love of what I do. It’s simply something I can’t shut out of my mind, and it’s really been tying me down from everything else out there.
Perhaps making the situation worse is I find solace in the material things I buy for myself. I don’t want to discuss it here in detail, but yes, it’s really lame and I can’t help myself. I’m a damned fool. It’s definitely not just for the love for whatever I’m buying; it’s the need to be comforted and responding to that need by buying cheap ass music CDs and ripping them for my iPod, for one thing.
Food continues to be that hole in my pocket. A friend told me a long time ago: “Pagkain naman ‘yan eh, huwag kang magtitipid sa pagkain (Well that’s food; frugality doesn’t apply to food).” Okay, whatever man, how about now that I’ve upgraded the costs of my daily meals and it’s like a Supersize Me moment everytime I’m at a restaurant? It’s definitely not just for the love of food that I’m doing it; it’s just disregard for wallet management and cheaper alternatives. (In the past few weeks, though, I’ve been enjoying cheaper food trips. Uyeh to takoyaki, turon, and Bugong’s roast chicken.)
Why again am I talking about this? Because I spaced out and my currently one-track mind jumped from one subject matter to another.

Sometimes, life doesn't permit you to do just as you please.
I really wanted to write about how I think I’ve forgotten how to love: what it feels to be in love, why people fall in love, and how people should respond to love. I think I also wanted to write how, for some odd reason, whenever I think of love, I also think of damned chocolates.
I also don’t know why lines from the movie Kimmy Dora keep on messing up an otherwise coherent train of thought. “Demonya ka, impakta ka, mamatay ka nuhhh!” “Ako, ako si Dora Go Dong Hae!” “Ebola virus? Ano kaya ‘yun? Malaking ipis?” “Kadiri ka, huwag mo ngang kainin ‘yang suka ko.” Mind-bending.
Back to the topic at hand. Maybe I rejected love as an emotion a few months back because I wanted to focus on work, and perhaps it was a rejection made out of the wrong reasons. Now that I’m both loveless and happy at work, I feel that I’m missing out. Is it time to open up to the possibility of a new relationship? Maybe. I think I might even have some use for a dose of inspiration right now.

This cup of White Haze costs Php 115. It doesn't cost anything to love. Do the math.
Di ba, ako’y tao lang na nadadarang at natutukso rin? That’s the way it should be. Eh nasaan na ‘yung tukso?